His Girl Again

I flipped the pages to the calendar this evening, and was overwhelmed with my memories. 6 years ago, I was in what, to me, felt like a dungeon of despair. I was an addict who mourned a life she could only dream of. I remembered the call of my spirit to be His "girl again." I longed to make Him proud, I just didn't think I ever could.

I remember, even in my misery, my sin, my sadness, His word was my conviction, and it was my comfort. The dates in my Bible seem like a lifetime ago now, but wow, what a difference 6 years, and a marvelous Savior, can make!!  As I unpacked these golden nuggets from the storehouse of grace tonite, I could only weep with gratitude.

I am grateful His hand is salvation, and He heard me even though my sins had hidden His face from me. My paths had undoubtedly been crooked and finding my way back home was a long journey; nevertheless, the light did come. If you only knew that girl 6 years ago, you'd know why I find it amazing to have the beautiful life I do, and why I love Him so. I'm thankful He heard my prayer, and that even when I didn't feel like I was His girl, to my Father, I always was.


Behold, the Lord ’s hand is not shortened, That it cannot save; Nor His ear heavy, That it cannot hear. But your iniquities have separated you from your God; And your sins have hidden His face from you, So that He will not hear. The way of peace they have not known, And there  is no justice in their ways; They have made themselves crooked paths; Whoever takes that way shall not know peace...

Arise, shine; For your light has come! And the glory of the Lord is risen upon you. “Instead of bronze I will bring gold, Instead of iron I will bring silver, Instead of wood, bronze, And instead of stones, iron. I will also make your officers peace, And your magistrates righteousness. Violence shall no longer be heard in your land, Neither wasting nor destruction within your borders; But you shall call your walls Salvation, And your gates Praise.
   Isaiah 59:1-2, 15. Isaiah 60:1, 17-18